Mid-Sem

So much had happened over the past few months... It was like going through a long, bumpy roller-coaster ride... I miss those days when T03 were in Ho Chi Minh City, Vietnam! ( I typed out a long list of my days in Vietnam but blog screwed up!) We had nothing to worry about and just chilled out at Go-Go every night. I learnt many things from the trip as well as the Vietnamese friends that I had made. Those days were so carefree and we were so bonded! Although I get to see these bunch of friends from T03 in school but the feeling is not there since we are all busy with our own stuff. Global citizenship had been the stepping stone for me to many areas such as being the President of Global Connect Club, overseas attachment in Vietnam with Albert ( to be confirmed) and increased popularity in my school. I am greatful to have Nicoll as my tutor since he is responsible in exposing me to many opportunities. Alvin had been very encouragaing as well.

This semester is and will be very tough for me. Being in the main committee for 3 clubs is tedious but I get a sense of satisfaction when things go smoothly. From these clubs, I gained different knowledge and skills. Also, the pressure of having to pass every papers so that I can go for OSIP without worrying about supplementary papers is killing me... Whatever it is, I am glad to have many good friends around and reasons to keep me going...

Besides stressing over school works and CCAs, without realising when or how I had fallen for this particular guy... I do not know whether I should let him know or not as I am not ready to face rejections... Why must it always happen to me? Why is it that the guys I like will only learn to appreciate me only after I had given up hope? Despite a few guys had confessed their love for me which I am glad to know, I am still waiting for the one I like to confess to me.

Amanda, how I wish you are here for me right now!!! I miss you so much!!! I am feeling very lost and hurt!!! Part of me is very keen to let him know but the other part is stopping me after thinking through the consequences that I may need to face... I really do not know what he feels for me, what should I do my dear? I really wish to get away for few months but you know I am not the sort who runs away from reality...

Now, I have to focus in my mid-sem papers which starts tml but I have no mood to study. Thought I could relax on my birthday but whole week have to be in school for duties and losing the excitment of celebrating. I am waiting for the graduation day. Shall post more often in future to update you ;o)